My Heart

Our song came on this morning as I was getting dressed and it took me back. I relished the moment for a few seconds, but I decided not to give you the satisfaction. I don't want to go back. I don't want to feel nostalgic or feel remorse because truthfully, I'm perfectly happy where I … Continue reading My Heart

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7:55

On the outside, I’m functioning. I walk, talk, breathe and speak like the rest of the people in this world, but on the inside, I’m curled up in a dark corner. I haven’t moved an inch from my rusting, dingy post since last fall, and every time I think I might’ve slayed the dragon within, … Continue reading 7:55

Hmm…

How do you all feel about church? Do you attend weekly, monthly, annually, or only on special holidays? Does going to church make you feel closer to God? Do you feel absolved of your sins when you go to church? I’m Seventh-Day Adventist and on Saturdays, we celebrate (?), maybe partake (I’ve never quite known … Continue reading Hmm…

Journal

Whenever I love something or someone too much, I always fear that it'll get taken away from me. Just now, I was looking at pictures of my cat and naturally, being the creep that I am, I started thinking of what my life would be like without her. I know that at some point, we … Continue reading Journal

Noise

Do you know what your own voice sounds like? It dawned on me today that I haven't heard my own voice in a very long time. Maybe I've never heard it at all. If I did, did I recognize it? The only time the world makes sense to me is when I'm listening to music. … Continue reading Noise

Lola

A friend asked me recently why I love my cat: Sometimes, I wake up in the middle of the night and I find her watching me from a corner somewhere in my room. People who've seen this actually happen always think it's weird or creepy. I've actually had a friend tell me that it like … Continue reading Lola

Blossoms

Well hello :)Today has been amazing. I'm the world's biggest procrastinator and have been putting off my fall schedule/financial aid for the longest, but I finally got it done today. I don't know why I put things off, it feels good doing things and getting shit done. Aside from that, I helped my sister move … Continue reading Blossoms

Violent Dream

Feels like I'm losing my mind a little bit. It also feels like I have a major issue with just....shutting up sometimes. I'm working on a story right now, but I had to stop and let my mind breathe. I'm feeling a lot of things right now and I felt like I was allowing my … Continue reading Violent Dream